i fail

i don't know why i let my anger get the best of me.

i fail.

that's all their is to it.

sometimes this flesh that i live in takes over and i can hardly do anything to stop it.

last night i failed, real big.

i am not happy about it and i feel like the biggest jerk in the world.

but i needed to let go, i can't justify anything i said, and i need to figure out how to let go, without letting all this anger bottled up inside me taking over(and need to figure out how to let go of this anger as well).

all i can say is that i am glad the Lord can renew me and change me and grow me into who He wants me to be.

Romans 8: 37-39

for i am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers. neither height nor depth nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

(i love these verses, because i mess up all the time and the Lord still wants me. there is nothing in this world that can separate me from His love, and the verse right above, if i lean not on my own understandings He will make my path straight. amazing.)

Philippians 4:8

finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--is anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.

let my mind be fixed on what is above.