east coast girl.. with a big heart

and by big heart i mean, God has filled this heart.

so much lately that's it's not even the question of sharing it with people. 

it's more like.. it spills out. it's what i love the most ever. 

i've been playing around with the idea of peace, and from peace it turns to change, and above all it's love. 

there are two things i want to share with you.

one is a poem i wrote about a night that i stood ankle deep in the ocean and just listened to the way the  waves and the winds silenced all the people who were behind me on the sand. 

the song of creation
taking me back
to a cool day
wlking in the garden
with You and only You

the wind whips my hair
grazes my arms
kiss kiss kisses my cheeks

the sun strikes my body
dances down my spin

You
strength in seconds of
solitude

the next one is by oswald chambers who wrote a daily devotional called My Utmost For His Highest. my pastor read this to us today, and it's amazing, so i want to share it with you. it's from july 28 and goes like this:

God’s Purpose or Mine?

" He made His disciples get into the boat and go before Him to the other side . . . "

—Mark 6:45

We tend to think that if Jesus Christ compels us to do something and we are obedient to Him, He will lead us to great success. We should never have the thought that our dreams of success are God’s purpose for us. In fact, His purpose may be exactly the opposite. We have the idea that God is leading us toward a particular end or a desired goal, but He is not. The question of whether or not we arrive at a particular goal is of little importance, and reaching it becomes merely an episode along the way. What we see as only the process of reaching a particular end, God sees as the goal itself.

What is my vision of God’s purpose for me? Whatever it may be, His purpose is for me to depend on Him and on His power now. If I can stay calm, faithful, and unconfused while in the middle of the turmoil of life, the goal of the purpose of God is being accomplished in me. God is not working toward a particular finish— His purpose is the process itself. What He desires for me is that I see "Him walking on the sea" with no shore, no success, nor goal in sight, but simply having the absolute certainty that everything is all right because I see "Him walking on the sea" ( Mark 6:49  ). It is the process, not the outcome, that is glorifying to God.

God’s training is for now, not later. His purpose is for this very minute, not for sometime in the future. We have nothing to do with what will follow our obedience, and we are wrong to concern ourselves with it. What people call preparation, God sees as the goal itself.

God’s purpose is to enable me to see that He can walk on the storms of my life right now. If we have a further goal in mind, we are not paying enough attention to the present time. However, if we realize that moment-by-moment obedience is the goal, then each moment as it comes is precious.

i hope you are blessed on this beautiful july sunday!